Life is hard. The truth is simple. (How a Piece of Me Died in 2018)

life is hard

2018 was a groundbreaking and weird year.

It was in February that I started feeling “off”. Life was not easily falling into place . . . life was not in flow.

I was doing all of the “right things”: I was living life the way I “successfully” had in the past; applying a similar formula for success. But I still felt so uneasy . . . as if I was pushing against a brick wall.

Everything I accomplished seemed only to come as the result of a lot of hard work, time, and exhaustion. Anything I wanted to achieve only seemed to happen through struggle.

So I hired another assistant.
I executed a new marketing plan.
I switched up my workout regimen.
I drank even more green juices.
I bought a handful of new crystals.

And none of it worked for me.

I still went to bed exhausted and woke up exhausted.
There was still a lack of flow in my business.
Less people were visiting my website every month.
I was easily annoyed in my mommy-ing duties.
I was even put on medication for a thyroid imbalance.

How to Change Your Mindset When Life is Hard

In time, I came to understand (or perhaps, remember) that what was happening on the outside must be a result of misalignment on the inside. I had to stop trying to resolve my external chaos and confusion with more and more external methods.

An energetic shift was needed, and I was determined to make it happen.

I started by visiting Shaman Durek. I was skeptical at first, but I ended up spending four months studying with him, greatly humbled by what was shared with me through him.

For five months after that, I worked closely with master numerologist, astrologer, and tarot card reader, Remington Donovan. (And can I just say, dear ones — if you only understood a fraction of our connection to the stars, the planets, and the Universe, you would never feel alone again? You would wholly and completely remember — as I did — that you . . . we ARE the Universe.)

Finally, in November, I began to tap into my Akashic Records — through a former client of mine no less!

Akemi G. describes the Akashic Records as such:

“The Akashic Records are the energetic records of all souls about their past lives, the present lives, and possible future lives. Each soul has its Akashic Records, like a series of books with each book representing one lifetime. The Hall (or Library) of the Akashic Records is where all souls’ Akashic Records are stored energetically. In other words, the information is stored in the Akashic field (also called zero point field). The Akashic Records, however, are not a dry compilation of events. They also contain our collective wisdom. The Akashic Records are a great resource, but it’s only a resource. How you utilize it in your life is up to you.”

I understand that the Akashic Records can be a very “woo-woo”, and unconventional concept for many people, so absorb what you can and simply put the rest to the side. (Or not. Both choices are ok.)

Through the Akashic Records, I connected with my guides. The guides exist in the non-physical plane and each person, each soul, comes to the planet with a team of spirit guides that watch over them like guardian angels. These guides are ascended masters, angels, archangels, saints, ancestors, and more. As such, they speak as a collective, addressing themselves as “we”.

When I speak with Solera, the channel, she closes her eyes, clears her mind and then my team speaks using her voice and body to share messages of inspiration and growth.  It is not scary or off putting at all! It is simply like speaking to a friend and it is very clear when they are talking to me and when Solera herself is speaking–there are clear differences in her tone, intentions and body language when the guides are teaching.  

The more I connected with my guides, and the deeper I went into my spiritual studies and understanding, the more my life seemed to fall apart. The old was dying, so the new — something so much grander — could be born.

What Life Falling Apart is Teaching Me

Through it all, I was (and still am) learning:

:: How to recognize the purpose of life
:: Why we have problems and have to relate to them
:: Who is the self you think you are
:: The most peaceful, supportive and abundant perspective to hold daily
:: How to stop doing life the hard way & instead let life happen easily around you and for you
:: How to move through life with less resistance
:: The immense power of our thoughts and focus & how to command the mind’s energy
:: Where real and lasting joy comes from
:: How to manifest what I want while being aware of common manifesting mistakes
:: The nature of change, destruction, and “natural fire”
:: What it means to spiritually wake up
:: The true nature of goals, planning, & where the deeper sense of meaning we all crave comes from
:: The reality about money and the material world
:: The #1 formula to follow for maximal abundance, ease, and flow
:: How to change my mind

. . . just to name a few.

And I want to share it all with you.
It’s too much for today. But over time I will share all that is being taught to me in the hopes that all that no longer serves you will be taken away as well.

I pray that what I share will strip you of:

:: Fear
:: Misunderstanding
:: Misperception
:: Anxiety
:: Loneliness
:: Pressure to be more or less
:: Narrow-mindedness
:: Restriction
:: The need to prove yourself worthy . . .

. . . and the myriad forms of pain and suffering that consume the majority of your thoughts, and therefore, your life.

I know this is different from how I’ve taught before; how I’ve lived before.  How will you know if you can rely on and trust my words, suggestions and shared experiences?

You will know because it will resonate and make sense to you. You will hear an internal “yes.”

The truth is always very straightforward this way.

Until next time.
I love you so.


  1. What an incredible journey you have been on. I am always impressed by your willingness to open yourself to greater understanding, self-reflection and re-alignment and your courage to share it with others. Love to you my friend!

  2. Sharing your vulnerability with all of us and standing in your truth takes a lot of courage. I am so proud of you and witnessing your strength as you go thru this experience is so powerful. May all that your heart desires come to fruition in 2019. Love you!

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