Sometimes It’s Not Ok

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I don’t know how you feel.

I can only remember how I felt when it happened to me.

And it sucked.

I’m not going to tell you to feel better because it’s not time for “better” -yet.

Because sometimes it’s not OK.

Perhaps such a statement elicits a sigh of relief, a ping of anxiety, or maybe you’re totally appalled.

Either way: Stay with it.  Root yourself there.

Here’s the thing…

Despite the universality of loss + pain,  we know very little about recovery from it and, oddly, the acceptance of it. Navigating through soul-aching emotional remorse is a misunderstood process that most of us have very little idea how to respond to.

Correction. We do have a universal response to pain. And it sounds like this:

“Don’t feel bad.”

“You just need to keep busy.”

“Time heals all wounds.”

“Be strong.”

“Pull yourself up by the bootstraps.”

Screw that.  I’m here to tell you:  Feel bad.

Seriously, no rush.  Take a minute right where you are.

Truth: most of the condolences you hear after you’ve been struck by life are rational + intellectual but emotionally void.  How often have you heard “don’t feel bad,” when the relationship ended, the doctor had negative news, the lay off finally happened or the car broke down – again?

“Don’t feel bad” is dismissive.  It is unintentional but it diminishes your own, your lover’s, friend’s, family’s appropriate, valid emotions.

Being infused with sadness is all about a broken heart, not a broken mind.
And you can’t cure a broken heart with your head.  It’s simply the wrong tool.
This one you’ll have to feel your way through.

Loss monumentally shifts everything in your life.
Enough so that you + others will want to apply “smarts” to push through
those cataclysmic feelings in a jiffy.

BUT….

Over-intellectualizing your pain (or anyone else’s for that matter) is a type of avoidance.  The loss is too unnerving, too uncomfortable –  so you bury it under a flurry of distractions + quick dismissals. Over time this unresolved pain is cumulative and will resurface with the sole task of dismantling you.

Don’t fall prey to the ol’ adage “time heals all wounds.”
It’s what you do with that time that helps you heal. Repair.
Choose a new approach. Choose completion rather than avoidance.

Here’s the doosy of ‘em all.  When you give yourself and others permission to be
upset, you pave the path to steadfast “completion.”  You recognize you have the right to feel upset from time to time no matter how loved ones react.

You understand the pain of the loss/change will sting LESS  in the long-run
when you embrace it’s “ok-ness.” in the short-run.

And if your particular loss this time around is the loss of a relationship?

Maybe the relationship was mostly rewarding.
Maybe you spent a portion of it mascara streaked + curled up in a ball crying.
Or perhaps it was problematic from the get-go.

Regardless, when it ends, you are left  reaching out for someone who used to be there OR who has never been there + still isn’t.

It can feel shitty.
Ahh-hem…

Sometimes it’s not F #$@’ing OK.  And that is OK!

So feel lousy + as you begin to recover, you can start sorting through what worked and what didn’t in the relationship. But what if weeks go by, then months, and you still feel as if you’re wandering around in a thick grey fog? Have you stumbled into the black hole of grief never to return?

Give it about six to nine months. It often takes that long after a serious relationship for you to pick up the pieces and start rebuilding your sense of self.

Whether it be a romantic relationship, family, friends, health, finances  – there are very few vistas that grief will not infest.  When it does:

Steal the courage to allow the pain to surface.
Be there with it.
Befriend it.
Then commit to letting it go.

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I’m a Los Angeles based relationship + life coach. I offer a sharp combination of keen insight, know-how + intuition.   Want more life + dating advice?  Jump on my newsletter.   Interested in laser focused one-on-one treatment?   Hire me.  You won’t regret it.

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© 2011 Danielle Dowling

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